I know, I know, I know. I am HORRIBLE at keeping up with these things. I'm sure no one reads them anyway, so maybe I am just wasting my time on here. No, I won't look at it like that. I like going back to my old journals and seeing how much I have grown and changed. I have come to the recent realization that I DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME!! It's the most beautiful, enlightening, and elating feeling in the world. They can think whatever they want of me, as long as I am happy with myself, nothing else matters. I don't NEED anyone but me. Even if I am stuck in a rut without a job, if I needed to leave and start a new life (God forbid) I could. As much as I love Will, I have finally realized if I needed to leave him, I could. Not saying that in a mean way, just saying I know I could survive on my own. I used to be the type who was SOOOO needy and I needed everyone's approval. A people pleaser of sorts. I would kick myself and go crazy trying to figure out why someone doesn't like me, and throw everything out of proportion. I don't care. Those who do like me, like me for me, those who don't, can suck it!
So once again I am up before the sun, it's nice. The only thing is that I get tired mid-day. I don't know why. I wonder if there is anything I can take to cure this, like a vitamin or something. Hmm. Okay, I have nothing more to write at this time. Hopefully I can remember to update this a lot more.
Peace and Love,
Chanssee
